Monday, December 16, 2013

Fall 2013

I'm completely procrastinating. It is Dec. 16th and we are flying out for KY on the 18th. I have LOTS to do and when I get overwhelmed, sometimes I sabotage myself. So here I sit updating my blog while I SHOULD be straightening up the house, doing laundry, putting away laundry, packing, organizing the clothes the kids have outgrown that I'm taking back for nieces and nephews, etc. Sigh. It's going to be a long couple of days. I'm feeling a mishmash of excitement, anxiety, happiness and dread about the upcoming trip. I'm so happy and excited to see our family soon, to see the kids happy with their presents and interacting with their grandparents, to enjoy the holidays traditionally where the weather is COLD! (It's 70 deg. here today.) However, I would be completely lying if I didn't say that I'm also feeling anxious and worried. I'm dreading the flights with the kids. I'm worried that I'm still not finished with the Christmas shopping. It has been overwhelming to try to have things shipped to Mom or Nancy. I just want to go out and buy things for the family without worrying if there is room to pack it (or worse...forgetting to pack it.) I'm worried about not having a home of our own during the holidays and if this is going to make me feel sad. I think I've adjusted pretty well with the big move, but I know that a lot of the feelings I have are still raw. One sight of our old home and I'm going to be in tears.

One thing I've learned is that things always seem to get done and there's no point in worrying. (Matt. 6:34) If I have to stay up until 2 am tomorrow night, that is what I will do. I need to spend some time reflecting on the wonderful gift and reason for the season. I need to stop and be thankful that we have the means and vacation time to visit our loved ones and not dwell on the difficulties of such a trip. I AM thankful. And please dear God, let these flights go well!!!

Here's some pics from this fall!
Sweet pumpkin shirts from Aunt Jen!

Pumpkin Outing at a local "farm." Please note the shorts and red faces. It must have been 80 degrees!

Hiking in the Marin Headlands with baby boy.

Hiking in the Oakland Hills Redwood Park.

Halloween! Emily dressed up like Tinker Bell.

Nancy sent us this adorable Tigger outfit which was perfect for Caleb.

Sweet Emily rocking her stylish hat!

One day soon I hope to write about Nan's SF trip and post some of those wonderful photos we took during that trip!